Waiting

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January 28, 2019

On a Monday morning more than two years ago, I shared a poem I’d read. It was my second time through Nancy Thomas’s collection, Close to the Ground, and I’d stopped at the end of the first page to re-read the first poem. That’s when I realized I was doing exactly the same thing I’d done the last time I read Nancy’s book. And this morning, I did it again – opened Nancy’s book, read the first poem on the first page, and then read it over a second time (which might actually be my sixth).

It spoke to me the same way it did back in 2016, so I thought I might share it here, thinking it might be, not just for me, but for us.

 



Morning Watch

William Stafford, that kind poet,
once told me how he got up
at 4:00 every morning
to sit in the quiet and wait for a poem.
It always came. Stafford filled notebooks
with the fruit of his attention and freely
shared it with the world. I’m grateful
to have been included in that world.
So here am I, sitting in my own
quiet spot by a window. The morning
grows light before me. Trees emerge
and the far hills. Like Stafford,
I’m waiting. Waiting.

 



I’m not sure how these words feel to you. And I don’t know exactly what they might mean for Nancy, either. But for me, this morning, Nancy’s words feel like worship.

So I’m sitting with Nancy’s words as the morning grows light before me.

I’m paying attention to my breath. I’m listening for what God might have for me today. I’m waiting.

Eric Muhr


Seeds of hope is the three-year campaign to fund the ministry of Barclay Press so we can continue to do the work of developing new titles, supporting small churches, and balancing the budget. As of this morning, we’ve received $1,600 toward our 2019 goal of $56,000. Your support in 2018 totaled just over $50,000!





 
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The words of Jeremiah

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January 21, 2019

In this morning’s Fruit of the Vine, Phil Smith starts off a three-week collection of reflections on the words of the prophet Jeremiah with a reminder that saying yes to God’s call doesn’t guarantee earthly blessings: “Jeremiah obeyed God and suffered for it.” And “it’s not hard to see why. God’s messages through Jeremiah confronted his nation with its sins, starting with idolatry.”

There are myriad ways of attempting to understand the idolatry Jeremiah addresses in light of contemporary culture. Phil simply suggests that idolatry comes out of our attempts to control our destiny – or to control God.

These attempts at guiding, maneuvering, or controlling God aren’t necessarily power plays. Sometimes we’re simply afraid.

This morning, I’m trying to focus on and sit with the things that frighten me, the things that make me anxious, the things that keep me awake at night.

What about you? What are you afraid of?

Phil reminds us that God  “freed Israel from slavery, ... protected Israel in the wilderness, and ... planted Israel in the land of promise.”

And I’m prompted to pray something simple this morning, “God, help me.” 

Maybe you’ll join me.

Maybe you can pray this prayer too.

Maybe, together, we might remember that even though “no one can see or control God,” neither can anyone or anything “separate us from the love of God” (Romans 8:39).

No matter what you face, I hope you feel loved today.

Eric Muhr


Seeds of hope is the three-year campaign to fund the ministry of Barclay Press so we can continue to do the work of developing new titles, supporting small churches, and balancing the budget. As of this morning, we’ve received $390 toward our 2019 goal of $56,000. Your support in 2018 totaled just over $50,000!





 
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To let ourselves be loved

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January 14, 2019

In this morning’s Fruit of the Vine, Tim Almquist remembers a friend who suggested at a church youth gathering “that our first priority in following Jesus is not to love God.... Before we can truly love God or love our neighbor, our first step ... is to let ourselves be loved by God.”

How does that feel to you?

I first read Tim’s reflection in October, when we were proofreading the winter quarter of Fruit of the Vine, and I had to read through it several times. I knew that what Tim wrote is true, but I felt internal resistance to this line every time I read over it. I wondered why – what was it within me, exactly, that was having trouble with Tim’s words? Do you have trouble with these words? Or are they easy?

“Many of us attempt to order our loves and categorize our allegiances,” Tim continues. “We say things like: God first, family second, friends third.... By focusing only on pleasing God or meeting the needs of others without first embracing God’s love for ourselves, we ironically engage in a kind of self-worship. We believe we are the source of love, not God.”

I agree with Tim, but I knew this wasn’t why I was stuck. The reason I had trouble with Tim’s claim that “our first step ... is to let ourselves be loved” is because I wasn’t convinced I was lovable. But it was buried down deep enough that, at first, I couldn’t identify it as the source of the friction I was feeling.

I know that God loves me. But what does that mean? How does it feel? Do you feel loved by God?

Tim offers a reminder from 1 John that “our ability to love one another is made possible, not by our own efforts, but by God who first loved us and who, in the end, is love.” If we know what love is – if we love others – this, then, is proof that we are loved by God, no matter how we feel, because God is “the true, unending source of love.”

I hope you feel loved today,
Eric Muhr


Seeds of hope is the three-year campaign to fund the ministry of Barclay Press so we can continue to do the work of developing new titles, supporting small churches, and balancing the budget. As of this morning, we’ve received $355 toward our 2019 goal of $56,000. Your support in 2018 totaled just over $50,000!





 
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